by Phil Anderson
This has not been the best of years.  I know I just wrote that I turned 50 and how great and wonderful that was, and it truly was.  But I have been thrown some major curveballs that I didn’t see coming. 

One was when I was told that my youngest daughter is addicted to Oxycontin AND heroin.  There are not many worse phone calls to get.  So I’ve found myself having to uproot what I’ve tried to build as a life in North Idaho, with somebody that I REALLY love and head back to Seattle to face this problem head on.

There are problems with that, however.  The job I was working for, the internet company, wasn’t a “paying” job as most people know it.  I was given a roof over my head and dinner on the table and a beautiful home to live in on 10 acres.  Oh yeah, and eye candy walking around daily.  Don’t get me wrong, this came with a WHOLE lot of work and energy.  But all of those great things don’t really pay the bills, ya know.  Especially when the company has yet to take off, though I know it will.  Just without me, apparantly.

So, “it’s Christmas time pretty baby,” as the song says, and I have no job, no money, no honey and no home (when I went to take care of my daughter she told me, “don’t bother coming back”.  I’m trying to do the best I can to come up with some quick money to pay the cell phone bill by the 20th and still pay a plane fare for my oldest daughter, the one that has her caca together. 

Oh, yeah, and it’s Christmas.  Presents to buy, Christmas cheer, music and decorations to admire and adhere to.  And though I love my daughter and want her to get better, my heart is still in North Idaho. 

I’ve come to the conclusion that money IS the main thing women want.  It doesn’t matter if they tell you otherwise.  If I made a ton of money THAT would be perfect, even if I wasn’t around because I was busy working.  I just need to write this so I can get this scummy feeling out of my soul. 

It’s not healthy and it’s bringing bad, bad, bad joojoo to me.  Last week I had my truck broken into and about 500-700 bucks worth of things taken.  THAT followed my tire blowing out and me needing to replace it.  My mindset needs a major paradigm shift and I think this writing will help boost that process.

I know nobody will be reading this particular post because I will NOT be promoting it.  But I’m glad it’s here for me tonight and this time in my life. 

From this point on, my life is propelling forward!